these last few weeks have been hectic for me! i'm not a director or actrees blablabla who need to work till late but I'M JUST A STUDENT! study makes me crazy! since the 2nd week of Feb all of exams came to us and we studied like a crazy *maybe, but not all* since then, i hvnt watched TV or even played! every night i studied studied studied! last week i got headache and its really really excruciating. i cudnt concentrate, all i wanted to do was just sleeping, laid down. but, all the hard works paid off cos I got good scores! HURAY! not good at all, but at least i dont need to remake my scores cos under 70. alhamdulillah thanks Allah :) but am not sure with my arabian score --' i cudnt do it :( haha oke, continue to that weeks. every night i studied and also every night i had to sleep late! *I often sleep late at night, but i watch movie and play not study haha* went to bed around 11pm or 12pm then woke up at 5.30am! i felt like every morning my head spin, my whole body aches and always sleepy *as usual* at school, i just want to close my eyes, lay down, then sleep haha till now actually. school is boring for me, plus when the subjects are maths and science --' i just bowed my head, close the eyes for seconds, then open it again then doing something meaninless just to relieve the boredom or maybe read novels or just play with myself. it's a habitual that Ialways come to school with sleepy eyes haha. plus that i have to prepare for my aunts weddings. MY AUNTS! that means more than one of my aunts are going to get married! first one on feb 27th and the next one on march 6th! --' i have to order the dress blablabla rempong! BUT ALHAMDULILLAH THE EXAMS WEEKS IS OVER AND THE WEDDING IS GONNA HAPPEN AND I CAN REST A BIT! haha now i can play, download, blabla do somethings fun again! but that happiness wont last long. march 7th or 14th the mid exam is waiting --' study study study again hash! hard work now but in the future i'm gonna get what i want definitely amiin! UGM UGM UGM cmon catch it! pray for me haha

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i went to CFD (car free day) in.... somewhere in jakarta lah, around GBK Gelora Bung Karno. it's my first time riding that far. wanna tell you the exact scenes....
we discussed bout this event for about erm 5 days and the conclusion was always changed! honestly, it made me frustrate bcs they it too long! but then we met the deal, went there by train and we brought the bike by ourselves. DEAL. but then, H-1 someone texted me that we wuldnt go by train but by cars and gather at school at 5.30am! bah! panic! too early. okelah. i set my alarm 4am. i woke up and thought 'haaa still too early. 15 mnts more' i set that but...i woke up an hour later! i was shocked then head to the bathroom, brushed teeth,took a bath blablabla rempong! i looked at the clock, 'hash! 5.20. what should I do?' i called chairin but she didnt answer. i called ijat then she said, 'ok. let's hurry!' i packed my breakfast then ran to my bike then swwwuush! i rode it like crazy. wuush wuush wuush! ngosngosan! i thought ijat and chairin already there but they hadnt as usually --' i counted till 63 and hadnt come. then i decided to go but jreng! hey came. we rode it fastly srenggg we're there and very tired! the earliest and the fastest i went somewhere by bike! blablabla
all the happy things happened and i had sooo much fun! sometimes i cant write what i feel but sometimes its easy to write it down. hash! i feel new -?- haha. these are the photos i took :







not much cause i dont like spamming my camera with something i dont like, i mean i love natural poses. so, i took something without them realised it. crekcrekcrek and it's hard to take photos cause i have to ride my bike, so that's all i took, the good one hehe

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a lot of my friends from WestlifeIndonesia are trying to persuade some promotors in Indonesia to bring back Westlife. some of them say that they miss westlife cos it's been almost 5 years since their last concert here and some of them are just want to see them cos it's their 1st westlife concert. honestly i want to help and also persuade the promotors to bring them back, but as i already wrote, there's no excite feelings for them. no semeriwing anymore. and also, when one of the promotors gave us a hope, my reaction was just 'WOW' then just typed I want westlife and BSB also NKOTB. but then again, i felt like i'm not their fan. just a listener but typed it just to help them. and you know, if Westlife really come back again, i dont know what will i do. Westlife concert was or is one of my dreams, but....hash! i always waited for this moment when i'm no longer their fans, no longer feel those excited feelings, but this time it feels wrong! why? cause eventhough they're gone, they new one already come --' just the same but another person! cos i hoped after them, there's no one else but the reallity doesnt agree. it doesnt happen the way i want it happens. pray for the best lah, if they come back here again, i wil....still collecting the money but not sure if i'll buy the ticket. GOOD LUCK BUDDIES! never give up to persuade the promotors, bring them back! :D

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TAH! ive been watching some of Korean dramas lately, eit it's a drama or movie? yah something like that. actually it's not SOME, but just TWO --' haha but I feel like i have watched sooooooooo many drama. 16 episodes every drama! bah. honestly at first, i didnt put my interest on some Korean things, but if my friends are watching that i'll join them then just watch, nothing else even I insulted them bcs they look like a girl --' i just talk honestly.but then, i put my interest on Personal Taste, watch it till the end and then replay again! I GOT ADDICTED! even i searched for the subtitles cos some were missing haaaaaaaaaa. then my friends suggested me to watch Playful Kiss and My girlfriend is a gumiho then i just said yes! ha! i watched Playfull Kiss, just finished that an hour ago, and.......... haaaaa addicted again!you know the reason why i can be so addicted? THE STORIES ARE JUST TOO ROMANTIC! that's the mistake! i made mistake by watching those dramas! and honestly, i wanna have erm like baek seung jo --' he's very cool, smart, acts cold to someone he loves, always mocking, but in the end he's a caring person and the story ends with a happy ending. so many imagination things in those dramas, i mean the story makes me imagination something haha --'
no wonder if all the Korean fans are crazy, they like to imagine something romantic blablabla, cos every korean dramas movies etc are like that! and almost all of my friends want to get married as soon as possible bcs of those! and the scariest thing is...i got trapped in their charms! --' haaaa disaster! and also i already got bored with those lads from Ireland, their image already bad in my eyes bcs of one of the members. no excited feelings anymore. HOW HOW HOW! and i would like to screencaps the romantic scenes haha also would love to have those romantic sences in my own real life. HAHA

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week ago, 6th of Jan, i just came back home from my two week holiday in Pare, Kediri. I went there since Dec 26 if im not mistaken, went with 5 of my friends, Sittah Amany Wardah Ghina Fildzah. after 16 hours in the train, what a tiring journey!, then we're there finally! had a breakfast together in an inn, traditional inn, we ate something called.... ah actually forget the name but it was made from soyabean cake. it's delicious! blablabla. we met and got to know with indramayu stundents, we played we laughed together, danced.... but then, jan 1st, we had to move to another dorm bah! the situation was so calm and boring. hardly to play with the indramayu students. honestly, i want to write down my experiences there but too lazy to write and confused what to write! maybe pics may help hehe. but the pics have to wait cos the internet connection is so bad lately! sloooow. and errrm all of my friends except me who went there, just me, have no interest to call them back dont know why. while they're calling them, im just listening to their conversation but still i talk to my other friends. listen then forget. why? dont know either. i have texted them but that because they texted me first and that was a week ago! haaaaaaaaa oke. the pics are coming soon

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as i planned before, i wanted to upload some photos of my journey to Merapi, well it's not exactly Merapi but just be volunteer came to some refuges blablabla. it's a cool trip as iv told you before. OKEY! the photos :) taken from my handphone so they're low quality hehe

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last week, I went to Jogja with BSMR to be a volunteer for Merapi eruption. That's my first experience and kinda surprised the first time I was told by the teacher! kinda surprise cos Merapi status still 'dangerous' and we're still the beginner in medical world. I was excited, very excited but also scared. scared bcs of the status Haha but then I asked my mom pap permission, then they allowed me! they said, 'if it's good for you and ure sure bout this, why not?? Join them!!' haha thx mom pap. i was so sure bout my decision, BUT 2/3 days bfr I left, i kinda hesitate. im scared if i wont come back home, ck you knw what i mean! i got the homesick even bfr I left! --' but then, I made myself sure bout the decision then I go haha

The trip was sooooo unforgetable and fun! eventhough we trapped in traffic jam (but cudnt say it as traffic jam!) for 3 hours in the middle of the nite, in the darkness, the cars stopped their machine, so everything's black! but still, if I go somewhere with friends, no matter what happen in the journey etc, it's still fun and want to do it again haha. we're 18 hours on the road, but no tired feelings! was sleepy yea I was, but not tired haha cos I did it all with happiness, sincere. we stayed in a dorm, PPSDMS Nurul Fikri 21kms from Merapi peak, we were led by some 'kakak-kakak' (how to say it??) and they always by our side everywhere we went and scheduled our schedule.

the first day, we went to Muntilan. along the way, everythings covered by vulcanic ashes! everythings grey, all the plants withered, and so quite. then we visited a refuge camp and blablabla. i was placed in soup kitchen and I had so much fun! learned how to fold the rice paper, packed the foods it's fun!

the second day, we went to UGM balairung to pray Ied. UGM!! ohmyGod! the university I desperately want to enter and study there! haha after that we went to Youth Center. kinda forget where it is, but it's near PPSMDS. here I go again, went to the soup kitchen to packed the foods! it was a very very tiring day COS 4 hours I have to sit then fold the rice paper without stopping cos the refugees needed to eat then we had to packed thousands of foods! haha encokencok but still it's fun! I lost my BSMR waistcoat :( i had found every places, asked the refugees but still, i cudnt find it.

the third day, we slaugthered goats, cows, and sheeps. I was assigned to cut up the meats. at first, I kinda confused how to cut it, but then I knew how to cut it up and enjoyed it! we did it until the afternoon, almost afternoon, then we distributed the meats to independent refuge camp lalalala

the fourth day is our last day! we went to Abu Bakar Senior High, some chats then go haha then we went to PPTK or... forget the name hehe we saw the Merapi status,blablabla just like BMKG. we met Mr Surono there and took a pic haha! then at nite, we went to Malioboro, but kinda bored then we ate at cangkringan with kak Andhi and kak Agis. those kakak-kakak share so many things!got motivations from them, good influences! :)

everythings happened in Jogja were purely 100% my first experience! i learned a lot, got lotas motivations blablabla. i had so much fun and cudnt forget it! hope to do it again! for more stories, cud read in my Words haha or hear my story dudududu.

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YAY!! have changed it again and finally i decided IT IS MY FAVOURITE TEMPLATE! haha but I do still love the first template, first time re-design it. and this template, is the template that I've been waitin for! I reeelleeee love it love it! it looks like THE REAL website ha ha. well, the thing is I'm soooo happy with it! thanks to the author who made it thankyouuuu

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i'm so sorry cos lots of my posts are about Westlife nowadays. know why?? cos I'm so excited with their upcoming album and their brand new single! know it's gunna be amazing! love the concepts, SAFE! haha eventhough i just saw the pics from the video shoot, but I know it's amaaazing! a car crash... WOW! haha alrite. myb if this excitement has gone, then i'll post some random things. oiya! I love Jason Derulo songs now! have played it repeatedly and the song are in my most played! haha de-de,dede

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havent been here for a while! busy with school thingy last week and the weeks before. the UTS went well, BUT the scores?? dont ask! all of my scores have decreased since high school baaaaah poor me! it's hard to reach the standard score nowadays --' no spirit, no desire to study, lazy, etc. all I want to do is just lazing! haaaaa need to push the spirit back. help!

oiya! next month, Westlife' brand new album will be released! HAHA it's called GRAVITY, and the photographer is Kevin McDaid again! YAY! cant wait hoho

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roite!! today I re-design it again haha. kinda satisfied yesterday with ystrdy template and it's cool! but just want to re-design it again then, here we go! haha

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God! Finally I could re-design this blog! Haha kinda proud dedede it's tiring! I want to re-design it soon, and also a big thank to my friend, Charinnisa Zakira, who told me about this! need some times to find the right template then, mix it! haha thatnks to Nicole :) xx

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I know I have grown up, grown up to be a lady. a mature lady, the smart lady, etc. but, I still kinda errmmmm annoyed with something that's not right in my eyes! at school, yes I know everybody has their own rights to like/love someone and I'm not bothered with that. but the thing that really disturbed me is... you know everything goes wrong! they seem like another persons that I dont know! the persons that used to be 'nice'. don't get me wrong, but the way they're doing nowadays, seems so wrong! the topic they talk about, their attitudes changed. I know we're on 2nd grades of HS but could you guys keep your attitude?? I loved your attitudes in the past but not now! seems so boring being around you and annoyed! think that I can't unify our minds. I used to, but I can't now. feels like, we're seperated by a big walls. feels like our world's different. maybe that's how teenagers are in love, I like someone yes I do, but I'm not that tacky. not everytime I talk about him. I got bored too if every days I have to talk about him.

it doesn't mean that I'm not brave enough to tell you, but I don't know how to say, I don't know the right words, the words that couldn't be wrong cause I don't want to make enemy. sorry x

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the last time I slept, I dreamt bout Adam Lambert. he came to Jakarta and held a concert. I saw his advert, then I screamt 'OHMYGOD!! I HAVEN'T BUY THE TICKET!!!' (screamin in my dream) I was shocked and in my dream, the concert wud be held in any days. not remember the exact time, but I remember it wud be in the near days. and then I woke up. huh. what a nice dream. hehe ^^

Dream is a succession of images, sounds or emotions that the mind experiences during sleep. The content and purpose of dreams are not fully understood, though they have been a topic of speculation and interest throughout recorded history.

*got it from Mr Wikipedia

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today was the first day of Ramadhan and already passed hours ago. Im having days off so that means I'm home alone. well honestly, I kinda forgot I had prayed Subuh or not cos I was sleepy and confused, is it dream or not? but then, I slept and woke up at errmmm maybe 8am. then mam and dad went to work. I was home alone. Bored, switched the TV on then watch DVDs. again, kinda boring. dont know what to do. study? arrgg dont want to do it -lazy-. wash my shoes? errrmmmm later. clean and tidy up my room? I have planned to do it today but suddenly mom said I could do it on Friday ngeehhh makes me lazy. so, I did nothing, all I did today was lazing. slept, prayed, read Quran, DVD, inet, all meaningless activities except prayed and read Quran. baaahhh. I was bored but lazy too to do things. Time passed so fast then head to 5pm. I made foods for my own. I made fried egg, french fries, tea, and es buah *how to say it in english??* finished them all, then took a bath. then then Adzan Maghrib. I sat on dining chair, and you know what?? it was soooooo quit, the sounds were just from my fork and the TV. I broke fasting alone without anybody. ANYBODY! mom and dad haven't home yet. dont mind at all, all alone just by myself but errmmm kinda jealous with everyone who has their fams around and ate together. me? it's a rare occurance. to have dinner together, for mam, its so hard to arrange the time. for holiday?? DONT ASK! it's THE HARDEST THING to do. all they do is WORK WORK WORK and WORK! and even Sunday, they're still working. but it's just for some times. ngeh -_____________- better to stay somewhere nice, somewhere cold, or maybe somewhere a lil bit crowded??. maybe in another county ahuy! that's what I want! or stay in Jogja. that's gooooood. or maybe go to College in the UK or maybe Germany Norway or IRELAND! but Ireland is the last. I wanna go there bcs of Westlife. if I didnt know them, Ireland maybe would be number..errmmmm maybe out from 10. but its just maybe. Love ya xx

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Im crazy with this brand! I want its products sooooooooooooo bad! arrrgghhh but the problem, the only, the main is THE PRICE IS TOO EXPENSIVE and mom will never ever let me to buy it! definitely beeeeeeeeeeh -..- I love the design, i love its style! do you know why I want to have it?? cos I saw Mr Carter wore it annnnnnnnndd as usual, he looks cool and such a macho. -hem? aahhh forget it- I mean, looks like a DJ and you know I love DJ's style of clothes. aiiihhhh hahhaa. their big T-shirts, jeans, sneakers, long necklace, cool hats and HEADPHONES ! mixing the music, makes the listeners want to shake their body! lalalalala.

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