I know I have grown up, grown up to be a lady. a mature lady, the smart lady, etc. but, I still kinda errmmmm annoyed with something that's not right in my eyes! at school, yes I know everybody has their own rights to like/love someone and I'm not bothered with that. but the thing that really disturbed me is... you know everything goes wrong! they seem like another persons that I dont know! the persons that used to be 'nice'. don't get me wrong, but the way they're doing nowadays, seems so wrong! the topic they talk about, their attitudes changed. I know we're on 2nd grades of HS but could you guys keep your attitude?? I loved your attitudes in the past but not now! seems so boring being around you and annoyed! think that I can't unify our minds. I used to, but I can't now. feels like, we're seperated by a big walls. feels like our world's different. maybe that's how teenagers are in love, I like someone yes I do, but I'm not that tacky. not everytime I talk about him. I got bored too if every days I have to talk about him.

it doesn't mean that I'm not brave enough to tell you, but I don't know how to say, I don't know the right words, the words that couldn't be wrong cause I don't want to make enemy. sorry x

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*I wanna go to my 'dreamland' hoho just to refresh my mind a while. need to remember the family tree


days ago, Archie saved sooooooo many photos of himself and he said 'upload it to your blog. promote me! dont forget about my new album!' so confident! -..- what can I say? he asked me again this morning soooo have to post it


Jesse came to me out of sudden, grabbed my back. 'Arrrrrggh not fair! promote me too!' shaking my head. but then I chose these photos ahhhhhhh




got it from tumblr.com *honestly haha

Labels: dreams, fangirling

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the last time I slept, I dreamt bout Adam Lambert. he came to Jakarta and held a concert. I saw his advert, then I screamt 'OHMYGOD!! I HAVEN'T BUY THE TICKET!!!' (screamin in my dream) I was shocked and in my dream, the concert wud be held in any days. not remember the exact time, but I remember it wud be in the near days. and then I woke up. huh. what a nice dream. hehe ^^

Dream is a succession of images, sounds or emotions that the mind experiences during sleep. The content and purpose of dreams are not fully understood, though they have been a topic of speculation and interest throughout recorded history.

*got it from Mr Wikipedia

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today was the first day of Ramadhan and already passed hours ago. Im having days off so that means I'm home alone. well honestly, I kinda forgot I had prayed Subuh or not cos I was sleepy and confused, is it dream or not? but then, I slept and woke up at errmmm maybe 8am. then mam and dad went to work. I was home alone. Bored, switched the TV on then watch DVDs. again, kinda boring. dont know what to do. study? arrgg dont want to do it -lazy-. wash my shoes? errrmmmm later. clean and tidy up my room? I have planned to do it today but suddenly mom said I could do it on Friday ngeehhh makes me lazy. so, I did nothing, all I did today was lazing. slept, prayed, read Quran, DVD, inet, all meaningless activities except prayed and read Quran. baaahhh. I was bored but lazy too to do things. Time passed so fast then head to 5pm. I made foods for my own. I made fried egg, french fries, tea, and es buah *how to say it in english??* finished them all, then took a bath. then then Adzan Maghrib. I sat on dining chair, and you know what?? it was soooooo quit, the sounds were just from my fork and the TV. I broke fasting alone without anybody. ANYBODY! mom and dad haven't home yet. dont mind at all, all alone just by myself but errmmm kinda jealous with everyone who has their fams around and ate together. me? it's a rare occurance. to have dinner together, for mam, its so hard to arrange the time. for holiday?? DONT ASK! it's THE HARDEST THING to do. all they do is WORK WORK WORK and WORK! and even Sunday, they're still working. but it's just for some times. ngeh -_____________- better to stay somewhere nice, somewhere cold, or maybe somewhere a lil bit crowded??. maybe in another county ahuy! that's what I want! or stay in Jogja. that's gooooood. or maybe go to College in the UK or maybe Germany Norway or IRELAND! but Ireland is the last. I wanna go there bcs of Westlife. if I didnt know them, Ireland maybe would be number..errmmmm maybe out from 10. but its just maybe. Love ya xx

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Im crazy with this brand! I want its products sooooooooooooo bad! arrrgghhh but the problem, the only, the main is THE PRICE IS TOO EXPENSIVE and mom will never ever let me to buy it! definitely beeeeeeeeeeh -..- I love the design, i love its style! do you know why I want to have it?? cos I saw Mr Carter wore it annnnnnnnndd as usual, he looks cool and such a macho. -hem? aahhh forget it- I mean, looks like a DJ and you know I love DJ's style of clothes. aiiihhhh hahhaa. their big T-shirts, jeans, sneakers, long necklace, cool hats and HEADPHONES ! mixing the music, makes the listeners want to shake their body! lalalalala.

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When you’re struggling with something, look at all the people around you and realize that every single person you see is struggling with something, and to them, it’s just as hard as what you’re going through

Labels: quotes

I finally understood what true love meant…love meant that you care for another person’s happiness more than your own, no matter how painful the choices you face might be ~ Nicholas Sparks (Dear John)

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I'M LAUGHING SO HARD!!! he's sooooooo errmmmm well looks idiot. BUT, that's how to treat a kid rite??




How cuteeee!

Labels: fangirling